Not this year! This year, when I am asked to do something or am looking at doing something, the SECOND I get that *OMG* feeling in my stomach, I make the decision that I am going to give it my best shot. I don't <really> listen to the voice in my head that is screaming at me that I am going to look stupid. I hear it and acknowledge it but have decided that this is the year that I push past that. And I have already had some really great results.
This blog. I started it 3 years ago and then listened to that shithead in my brain that said, "Naw girl...don't be wasting your time doing this - Ain't nobody got time to read what you write." I know people read this because Google Analytics tells me that but even if it was just me putting thoughts to paper (or keyboard) I would be happy because I am writing again.
My new way of eating. It's only been 79 days since I decided to change things up in the eating department and it has been going great. Not only am I getting the benefits of weight loss, I am feeling better, looking better and learning all sorts of different things to cook - and I LOVE cooking.
Not being a doormat. This is huge for me. I am done getting walked on. I am done being used. I am done feeling like I have to say yes. I am done taking care of everyone else so much so that I became lost. I still struggle with this because, well I still allow buttons to get pushed and I have not yet mastered the difference between assertive and aggressive. I think part of the problem is that I have been a pretty passive up to now. Never really saying much until I just couldn't handle it anymore and then like an active volcano I would just erupt.
Getting out. I am an introvert, I actually enjoy being an introvert but I also enjoy life and so I have been making myself go out and socialize, mix, mingle, make new friends and have fun. I have met some new and really wonderful people doing this and even though I love to just be at home re-energizing myself away from people - I have been having a good time.
Exercise. Hate it. I wish that I could hire someone to do it for me and sit back on the couch with a beer and watch them do it. However, it doesn't work like that. But...drumroll...I have actually been doing it :) I don't always want to but I push myself. If I had pushed myself initially when I started realizing that the scale was moving up, I wouldn't be here. And here I am - trying to get back to where I was LOL.
I have never really found anything I like - swimming comes the closest but ugh, all the after work that goes with swimming. I actually bought a swim cap so not to get my hair wet - yeah, those caps don't work for that, it is just to keep your hair out of your face. So not only did I embarrass the hell out of my daughter with my cap, I got wet hair.
Well, I am thinking I have finally found something I enjoy. My daughter is back from her six month stint in Mexico (yay for returning daughters) and she asked me to accompany her to Yoga - specifically hot yoga. If you have not experienced this form of
I have also been enjoying my weights. Again, by the end of my reps my <insert muscle group here> is screaming at me to just stop the insanity but I am starting to see results.
So in closing, I am still afraid to try new things, I am still afraid of looking foolish, I am still afraid of failing - but I am more afraid of life coming to an end and having regrets so I do it anyway.